A few weeks ago Andrew and I moved to a new apartment. My 7th in Chicago. Commitment issues? I’ll save that for another blog. It has us really excited and equally emotional. The place before this one was our first apartment together and it served us so well. The last 2 years living together have taught us a lot and we’re just now realizing how much it has strengthened our relationship.
We moved in together after a year and a half of dating which – if you’re thinking about moving in with your significant other – is in my opinion, a good amount of time before making that leap. We also were friends for several years before dating so, that helped the transition I’m sure.
When I reflect on these last two years, I see that the majority of my time has been devoted to my career and my relationship. I’ve felt a little guilty about some of that….I know I haven’t contributed a lot of time to my friendships and honestly, to myself. However, I don’t regret the time I’ve contributed to the either. I needed to give time to my career to fully realize what parts of it bring me joy and what parts I need to take a step back from. I needed to give time to my relationship because I truly believe that the time we have spent living together for the first couple of years have been incredibly crucial to the survival of our relationship. We both have many household needs that are….incredibly opposite from each other. He needs things to be super organized and tip top shape where as I’m a little more laid back (not a slob okay? I know what you’re thinking….jerk.) I need to have my own space, some me time…while he is someone who really loves company and enjoys when we’re in the same room (I know, I’m such a dick when you really think about it, but I like my alone time betch!)
All this to say – we needed these two years to see how we jive. Now 3 and 1/2 years into our relationship, we know each other to a T. Seriously. We finish each others sentences. It’s fuggin gross. So as we moved to this new apartment, we found ourself talking about what we’ve learned and what has changed for us together as well as individuals.
I have taken a big step back from acting/performing being the forefront of my mind. Which, if you don’t know me is huge. Since I was eleven years old I have never put anything before it. It’s been a breath of fresh air. I don’t consider myself just an actor anymore. I consider myself a creative. I’m never going back to defining myself as one thing in my career ever again.
Andrew, a creative as well formerly known as just “actor” has also taken a huge step back. We’re both creators however he likes to create just for himself and I need to create and share it with the world. Both completely adequate ways of creating. So as we make more discoveries about ourselves – it only seems right that we would move into this brand new apartment and begin the next chapter which is….completely unknown.
All I know is, I hope for three things. I hope to find my place in the world as a creator and giver. I hope my relationship grows even stronger and we can continue to do things on our terms, not how other people think we should do them. Lastly, I hope to develop an even better relationship with myself and give the best version of me to my friends and family.
My 20’s have been honestly, pretty rough so far but I’ve learned so much. I’m excited for the last couple of years and to go into my thirties feeling fabulous.
What will be your next chapter? Turn the page.
Self care, Self flare.